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142.) It’s sick, but I think part of me enjoys this, and wants depression, so I can get attention. But, I don’t tell anyone about it, so I don’t get attention from it. I’m so confused.
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141.) You cut with a paperclip, saying it was “your thing.” Bitch, I started with a paper clip in 5th grade, shut up.
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140.) No one can get through to me and I don’t know why. Years, every day, every hour, every minute, depression has consumed me. The pain has made me forget who I used to be.
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139.) You help me understand my fiance’s depression problems a bit better. Thank you.
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138.) I’m aloud to hate everyone, right? They abandon me, hurt me or stab me in the back- so I hate them… If not, I’m screwed.
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137.) No one listens to me or ever really gives a shit. I’m tired of crying alone, no one bothering to ask why. I will test them all, test my tolerance. Better to be high and happy than sober and alone.
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136.) Will I always be this cold and lonely?
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135.) I know she means the best because wallowing in self pity wont help anything, but when my friend points out the ways I am not taking care of my appearance it just makes me feel even worse. It just adds to my list of self critique.
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134.) I like it when I bleed.
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133.) When I see people I know bonding with each other I always think they will realize how boring I am and not want to spend time with me again.
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132.) I’ve decided that when I want to go, my mom’s sleeping pills will be the way. It’s always been the way. My plan for the past three years.
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131.) When people turn to me for comfort during depression I feel like stabbing myself a million times. Maybe then they would see that I’m in pain. Maybe then they would know that I could never burden them because they make it clear they don’t want me to.
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130.) The only poems I write are poems about my worthlessness. If people knew they would probably stop calling me a writer.
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129.) I can talk about my feelings: to my cat.
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128.) I haven’t been taking my pills. I’m saving them in the bottom drawer for when this all gets too much.
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